Pool

Imagining my future has never been this hard,

I used to be so motivated by it.

But now,

It all just seems pointLess.

I’m not sure what to call this but

It happened again.

Once again, I’ve lost myself in your eyes,

Your smile,

Your laugh,

Your jokes.

This brings me back to years ago

When we first became acquaintances,

Then friends,

But everyday I fell deeper into you.

You made me into a better versiOn of myself,.

Someone who wouldn’t recognize me now.

His ghost meant nothing to me

When I had you by my side.

Something about you excited me,

Brought a smile to my face,

Even encouraged me to do better.

You’ve seen me cry,

You’ve seen me upset,

You’ve seen me lose my mind,

These are things I hide from eVeryone

But with you, I felt like myself.

Months later I lost you

And it broke me,

I was lost again not knowing where to turn,

Though I still hoped you’d find and rescue me

I’ve recently met your eyes again

And have fallen under your spell.

One glance at me

And I can hear my entire world shake.

Except now I’m stuck,

One wrong move and you’ll be out of my life for good

But is it worth it?

Dare I put my heart on the line?

Is there even a future for me without you in it?

Or will I just spend the rest of my days diving deeper into your Eyes?