Goodbye

I wish I could go back to those days.

I remember walking to the pool deck

Dreading the next 2 hours that came my way.

But whenever I saw you I knew that it wouldn't be as bad.

When it came to being in the pool you felt the same way I did,

And it was nice to know that I wasn't alone.

I loved all the kids in the other group,

But I always felt weird around them

Like I wasn't part of their group.

But you actually talked to me,

And it wasn't about swim,

We would talk about music, movies, tv shows and school.

You would see me for more than the activity I did,

I finally had a friend.

When you left, that lonely feeling came back.

I was sucked into that other group,

Trying to squeeze myself into their little party so I wouldn't be alone.

It was horrible,

But I didn't blame you for leaving,

Instead I idolized you.

You had the guts to do something that I’ve always dreamed of doing.

When I found out you were transferring to my school,

I was excited

And I was right to feel that way,

We reconnected almost immediately.

I was so thankful to have you in my life again,

I finally had my friend back.

Our friendship wasn't the kind where we would hang out everyday,

It's what I would call my rawest and most trustworthy friendship

We didn't talk all the time,

Or even most of the time.

But when I was at my lowest,

I knew you'd be there for me

Just like you knew I’d be there for you.

I've always told myself to put up a front

And make sure all my friends were ok even if I wasn't.

But you taught me that it's ok to not be ok

And that I always have to check in with myself.

This is a debt that I’ll never be able to repay,

And I thank you for what you've taught me.

Unfortunately we've found ourselves at a crossroad.

You're leaving for San Diego in less than a week,

And I'll be stuck here for one more year.

I'm writing this to tell you to not look back,

I'll have to readjust not being able to text you whenever I want,

But you've been through so much

And you deserve to live your life.

I’ll miss you,

But this is something you have to do

And I’m extremely proud of you for following your dreams.

I hope to see you soon and please don't forget me.